I'm losing faith in mankind because of all the false promises I have heard throughout this ordeal. I'm not looking for a handout just a hand up. My grandsons and I are homeless. I am a hoarder and it's a mental disease not a criminal act. I've been used as an example of a horrible criminal in my local area. I have been sentenced to 270 days house arrest but if I don't have a home to do it in, I will have to go to jail. I've already disappointed my grandsons enough. What would happen to them? One is 18 and the other is 15. What would happen to them? Their mother passed away a year ago July 4th from Aids. I was her caregiver for almost 4 years after her 1st stroke and her 4th stroke was massive enough to take her life. Devastation isn't even the proper world to lose someone so dear. If God had seen fit, I would have taken care of her for 100 years. But He knew how tired and weak she was from fighting.
I can pay between $450-$500 a month for a place for my grandsons to call home. The deposit always matches the rent and the deposits for the utilities are another burden. One of them is still in school and we had to list his address as "homeless". I know that is embarrassing to him as a teenager. They both help me gather scrap to get through another day but I want to reward them by giving them a place to lay safely in their bed at night and to be able to invite friends over. Me, I'm tired of the fight to be homeless everyday. My health is failing because I can't get to my Dr's appointments. I just want to sit down in my living room ahnd relax. I want to ease my mind to the point where I can sit there and fall asleep knowing all is well finally in our world. People don't know how much mental fatigue it takes to be homeless. I am so tired. I've been at this since June 10th and I am tired. I let my babies down. That's mental fatigue.
I need a sugardaddy. Not the candy bar. Ok, that was just the first thing my fingers decided to type. It is not really true. I really justwant to relax for a minute and be taken care of for once. I believe in giving credit where credit is due. I deserve lots of credit right now. I am barely making ends meet. some of them are frayed very badly, but they are meeting, none-the-less. I miss having someone (over 4' tall) to come home to - to cook a nice dinner for and to inquire about my day . . . then cuddle up and sink into that cozy loved feeling. My financial circumstances, unfortunately, have led me to have very little time for myself and NO TIME for anyone/anything romantic. I miss that. Yes, I wish I had a stack of 100s dropped at my feet - right now, about $2000 would be fine. Yes, I wish I had the liberty of not HAVING to work. Moreover, I wish that I didn't have to subtract myself from my children so much.
Hello out there, boy oh boy am I burnt out. I have been running around like a chicken with his head lopted off. I am hungry, lonely, and tired, what's a guy to do ? I have been shopping the past few days getting stuff for an apartment I don't have yet. It is just in limbo until this program called HPRP gets aproval to pay my security deposit,first months rent and turn on the utilities. This process takes roughly 30 days and I am growing impatient. I have waited 17 months, a few day shouldn't matter but I find myself just ready and everyday stuff seems to piss me off more than usual. Anyway I know I am whinning, but heh at least I can do it hear instead of bothering some stranger on the bus.LOL Well I have to go for now because I need to fill out an application for a job working for the federal government, wish me luck. EZDUZITJOEY (:
Hey..My name is Dominique. Im 19 (just turned) and I need a little well alot of help. Im tired of living couch to couch..tired of asking for help..I been out here since i was 15 and from then and now i still have nothing. I been trying to find a job butit seems that no one will hire me. I dnt even have a GED but it seems like you need money to even live so i cant really focus on school. I was a dancer but now, not even clubs are calling me back. Im tired of having nothing. I just need a little well alot of help!